I don't know how other people can take this feeling. How can they survive feeling like this? Everytime I hear the name, say the name, read the name, I cringe, cold air shivers through my spine, my head goes blank, no, not blank, filled with thoughts of the owner of the name... tears run down my cheeks, my throat tightens, my lungs feel like they're filled with ice cold water, my stomach churns slowly but surely,my knees go weak, my hands grow cold. I want to run, I want to flee, I want to hide myself inside a cave, under the bed, under the table, anywhere, anywhere the owner of the name don't exist. Maybe another world, is there another world